Ummm....

Colorless green ideas sleep furiously!
~ Noam Chomsky.

The sentence says all i want to convey.Perfect Syntax doesn't always complete communication effectively.
Is it always so useful to be politically correct? Is it useful at all for that matter?
It is at times good to say things others would not like to hear if they are necessary.It is hard though!

************ Thought of the day!************

"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within."
~ Elizabeth Kubler-Ross ~

Up and Above!

A warm sunny day filled with clouds,
teasing and chiding ,planning hideouts,
the spells of rain shower,
dry heated dust wants to savor
the sweetness of breath and
the warmth of love
the trouble with desire is like untamed fire,
uncouth, unaware, unmeshed......
pure and raw ; it hurts me who is ill fated,
I want to stop that feeling,
don't want or long or pine;
love need not be reciprocated because
don't most of us think it is divine?

I've lost something!

Lost something a little while ago,

have no idea where to find it,

have no idea why do i need to,

have no idea where to go,

have no idea when will i get it back,

have no idea what will pacify my soul,

have no idea how things will change,

have no idea who will help out,

have no idea, have no idea at all.

Buckle up Dorothy!For Kansas is going Bye Bye........

A Break and that too a long deserved one or for someone like me who doesn't get too many of those, a most wanted break we can say.Last week happened to get about three days off.No work , no studies or rather I chose not to part- take in any of those activities, essentially a part of my identity right now.
All this rambling is just an introduction to what? well a quick 'JAUNT' as a friend names it...To Kansas ....Beautiful, serene Kansas.
Yes this was indeed the same place where they had a tornado about three days before I landed there.Severe weather expected and yeah two friends who were so busy on the day I arrived.
But they made time for me.Made good food for me.Took care that I enjoyed every moment I was there.Introduced me to their friends and in short enjoyed the break to the hilt.
Good food included a stint to a restaurant called ZEN ZERO in downtown Lawrence.Ever end up in that town.....trust me ...this place is a must visit.Affordable and delicious food.Pad Thai was awesome and what was even more interesting is all of us ate with chopsticks quite successfully and patiently.
Besides all the fun evenings and the pooling night...........the last day in Kansas City downtown stole all laurels for this trip.Built on the lines of a Spanish province Seville..........this small area of Kansas City called Plaza was charming.Colors merged with the serene landscape and beautiful statues complimented the spanish villa style buildings.
The Barnes and Noble here is wonderful.If there was one thing I didn't like about this trip was saying Goodbyes to all and especially to my dear friends.....But I guess we have to go away so we can meet again......anew , enthused and yes ever loving ...............

Will miss you a lot......

Sleep deprived & Indian food deprived succumbs to Blogging

Almost a week I had been dreaming to get a regular 8 hour beauty sleep this week. My usual quota of sleep now is somewhere between 4 to 5 hours a day. Absolutely ridiculous for I know this lack of sleep doesn’t let me function to my full potential. Nevertheless I do not mind it because I hardly have an alternative.
Finally after a hard duty night and room checks (about 200) and another grueling 4 hours working at the front desk, I finally was free to leave for the night.
Yup! It’s that unexpected freedom that sometimes appalls us more than the feeling of being tied to something.I didn’t know what to do first.
Just took a quick shower, changed, and got all dressed to go bowling with friends. Did that. Lost both the games. I hate losing a game. I don’t know why!!!!!! But yeah it was fun.
Specially one of my friend’s was exasperated with her futile attempts to master the art of successful bowling……Which can be defined as where the ball hits at least one of the ten pins. She was eventually crowned the Gutter Queen.‘The Itchy from Trichy’ was another of my friends who gave us several techniques of how to play well…..inspite of not being able to play to his fullest potential (or so he claimed)
My two other friends just commented on every single thing that they could think of and scrapped my plan of going to the Indian restaurant like nobody’s business but who cares about food when one is having sooooo much fun?????
I talked to a few friends home…..Back in India two of my school buddies are tying the knot pretty soon! It was so exciting to talk to them, find out how they met their respective sweethearts and yes also argue about why the wedding had to take place in my absence(?????? Which anyways I don’t have much of a say in)
Then we all (the 5 bowling champs) went over to a friend’s place and watched a wonderful movie ….called ‘A FEW GOOD MEN’.
It was a good movie and Tom Cruise looked amazingly smart. Jack Nicholson was probably at one of his best performances in this one.
ENJOYED IT TO THE T!
Came home late around 3 am and whoops, lay in bed counting stars……….Yes quite literally was trying to count stars on a densely cloudy night…….The moon looked awesome though. Called home, and then called some folks over in Mumbai.
It was good to talk so freely, since I finally have a break. But guess what….the spring break hasn’t even started and I am getting even lesser sleep that before………..Had to work at 6:00 am so that means had to get ready by 5:50 am.
In short, slept an hour and a half after I finished chit chatting with my folks about this, that and the other.
Hopefully spring will bring in some good luck.
Hope to get some work done……………and loads of sleep..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz………..

Rendenzvous

Well what do you expect? It's women's day they said.......A poetry slam in some shack or a coffeehouse or something, Nah, I had better things to do today! I retorted...
Like think about robots and how real life thinking doesn't help to build real perceptive robots.
I was breaking my neck over some research done way back in 1987 and believe me, I loved to read this paper.It was by an Artificial Intelligence researcher from MIT , U.S.A and what do you expect when you read work by one of the prolific reserachers in robotics from one of the best institutions of the country of his time................

"Sheer exhuberance of his own bombasity???????"No , not at all.Infact the paper was a modest attempt to put things into the right perspective.
As I got done with the paper and was about to leave I saw an old friend of mine.I hope she didn't think I pounced on her the minute I saw her............But seriously I was so so so so happy to see her.Not that we are amazingly close friends, but nevertheless I don't know why I think she happens to be just one of those few people I can connect with.I can talk to, even without talking tons of words. I was delighted atleast we could exchange a few sentences before she was on a way out to some show, she was going to attend.But yeah that was quite an experience and I think that really put me in a good mood.
I came home and dealt with a horrible work issue, with dirty undone laundry, dishes and a lot of homework but deep down in my heart I was contended.Why? I still don't know. But I was experiencing a little happiness I guess.Haven't been used to that happening lately but yeah life doesn't fail to surprise me every now and then

I think there are people who make you go out of your way to avoid even a glance and then there are those OTHERS who inspire you.............
Inspire not in the sense to be like them, but just give you enough inspiration to have the courage to be YOURSELF..........
To celebrate your own persona and be the queen / king of your own personal bubble.To such friends
I dedicate this blog and to my dear friend whom I met today.......
Kudos to you! Don't know what's it about your personality that I admire so much but just think that

To be you is to revere independence, to celebrate thought and to emulate enthusiasm!

THANK YOU for being YOU!

TALK TO ME.............

Heart : "So what you upto today you miniscule organ , one whole bundle of funny neurons, entangled nerves and so many electric potentials going up and down all day?"
Brain : "Will be just chilling in the confusion today."How about you? Are you busy today? Feeling anything at all?"
Heart: "Yeah a few wants have been on my mind recently (psk psk.....giggling brain at this point)
Brain : "YOU ? have a mind too?" "Now when did that happpen?"
Heart: "Is somebody feeling threatened now?" I mean I have decided to catch up on some skill sets that I was a stranger too.
Brain : "Now are you going to claim that you can do a better job of thinking than me?"
Heart : "Now when did I claim that.Wow you can surely read between words!"
Brain: "So what is the whole confusion about?" Have you consulted your action department at all?" "Is there nothing they can do for you to relax a bit?"
Heart : " Oh I've tried it all.Now I have just decided to play low, and do what feels right."
Brain : "Hey let me know if you need anything. I will be there for you!"
Heart: " Yeah right!!!!!!! After all the overtime work that you have indulged in (thinking, imagining, contemplating etc etc) You think I am going to call you?" Yeah no problem...I will call you if I need you. Thank you.
Brain : "Ah well it was my responsibility to ask, but yeah once again I say........Don't think too much....Your job is just to feel, not think......"
Heart : "Well you are right and I shall feel too......it's just that since I need to feel right, I gotta think right too.."
Brain : "Hope you feel better soon"
Heart : "Hope you stop thinking too much..................For then I shall definitely feel better soon!"
Brain : "Ya alrite, truce.......I won't think now on.I will just not think!"
Heart : "Hell you won't, why do you always have to go to the other end of the spectrum, can't you just be neutral?"
Brain:"yeah like think and not think? IS that being neutral in your terms? Ha hah ha ha I'll try that.Sure"
Heart : "Well you don't need to mock at me.All I want for God sake is a little peace of mind"
Brain : "ha Ha ha ha ha haha haha haha So now here we go again....Peace of MIND!!! the mind, one mind , your mind????? Ha ha ha ha ha. We'll see how that happens....Good Luck!"
Heart: "Yeah thank you very much! I think I will get my peace of mind...............Whether you support me or not" Good bye!
Brain :"Bye Bye!" Take care darling confused organ with a bundle of veins and artiries pumping the hell out've you.!!!!!!!!!!!!"

One of those days....

Yesterday was one of those days when nothing appeals to the human mind.The brain has no qualms about wasting every minute on hand and eventually getting to a point where nothing and noone means anything worthwhile.
It was a totally unfruitful day.If there exists a word like unfruitful.
Talking on the phone, meeting friends, drinking coffee several times (justifying to myself that i needed a break) and yes then meeting friends again, (taking a break to read a couple of articles only) and then to highlight it all a stint to the Mall.


Now I wonder sometimes my life is an open book and everyone can comment on what I do, but when I say this ever so proudly why does it hurt to hear anything about my actions.
I waste time.I fritter at any given opportunity.
I take advice from everyone for I crib to no extent.Am I really in need of a purpose in life?Am i treading on a totally wrong sojourn? Need I assess my values?Does the future hold anything substantial for me.
Now the time is that I just forget answering all these questions and absolutely focus on what needs to be done right now, today.But then I wonder when would I get to answering all these questions?Undoubtedly I have been avoiding them.And I , who has average intelligence, decent resources and sound backing from my social realm.............how can I not be willing to push myself and achieve something.
The only good thing that happened yesterday though was a meeting with a German Professor.And I think it really made me so happy to get an opportunity to talk a few sentences in german with the lady.I will work on my next goal of doing some research study with her.Hope it all works out in the end.
A quote I had read recently said
"IT'S ALL OK IN THE END AND IF IT'S NOT OK IT'S NOT THE END!!!!"

I hope this is true in all it's eternity.
To my new found motivation and to a spirit called LIFE........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Phenomenal Woman

PHENOMENAL WOMAN

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies I'm not cute or built to suit a model's fashion size
But when I start to tell them They think I'm telling lies.
I say It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips The stride of my steps The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

I walk into a room Just as cool as you please
And to a man The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees
Then they swarm around me A hive of honey bees.
I say It's the fire in my eyes And the flash of my teeth The swing of my waist And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

Men themselves have wondered What they see in me They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them They say they still can't see.
I say It's in the arch of my back The sun of my smile The ride of my breasts The grace of my style.
I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

Now you understand Just why my head's not bowed I don't shout or jump about Or have to talk real loud When you see me passing It ought to make you proud.
I say It's in the click of my heels The bend of my hair The palm of my hand The need for my care.
'Cause I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

Maya Angelou

Oh I so love this poem.......I guess many of you out there would love it too.........just phenomenal , isn't it?

Of Wilderness and More

This was an old composition for someone...........Yet my original work so I thought let me put it out there.................

I think of the wilderness and the paths that converge there.

Not one is ever treaded or bare.

What i think then is let me go on one of 'em I fail to see what or where it leads to, but even then i go on hoping i will meet a traveller or two.

I don't assume happiness and of course I am scared.

But when i end up alone at the destination I have a traveller waiting there.

I realize the path i treaded on wasn't the wrong one.

I was all alone but the journey wasn't invain

all because I had someone waiting at the end.

I never knew about it so perhaps it was nice.

Had I known i would have probably reached earlier too.

What i want to tell u is your path is barren and you are travelling alone too

but speeden up soon for i am waiting for you !!!!!!!!!!

WORDS....EVERLASTING WORDS....

Hundreds of people have asked me "what is psycholinguistics?" i have explained it a hundred times too but this friday I actually got an opportunity to delve in the linguistics side of it.Wow, what a seminar.
The english department at my university coordinates a seminar series every spring.So this year their first speaker of the series was a Polish Professor, Dr. E.Tabakowska from Krakoff, Poland.
A very learned lady with an excellent sense of humor.
I thought let me share some of the highlights of this talk with other language enthusiasts.So essentially we come to a question ' Why do we need language?'
Answer isn't complicated at all.
Language is a medium to express.However how the iconicity is interpreted universally alike is a mysteriously interesting proposition of study.
Dr. Tabakowaska began with a simple sentence .............'The language I use is because I see what I see and I want you to see what I see.'
Well we all agreed to that. We do communicate because we want the other person to know our perspective but then the next statement she said,raised a few sighs and gasps.............' We see icons of a language, could be pictures, symbols or letters (also symbols in a way), these are arbitrary but they each have an assisgned motivational value to them.And this motivation helps us communicate and interpret.Often when the signs are assigned the same motivation in a culture, they convey the same meaning.However there are symbols that are universal and grammar that is universal and we often make sense of the world from the world itself.'
Now this was a little heavy to take it at face value but she made it a point to give us apt examples to explain what she meant by iconicity and language perception and comprehension.
To quote a few would be as follows.

" People took pride in the peruque(instead of using a word like wig and the puffed petticoat, in the landscaped park , in the painted porcelain and the powdered pudendum (ibid, 595)
Now this statement not just describes the people of that historical period.......just the sheer use of words conveys their proud behavior, their uptightness and so many other things that the word order could have not if it were differently put.

Another one was about how a statement can be made into a command or it can be impinged on the memory sheet forever by minimum usage of words and also it can be a much more sharp / decisive command if the words are equal length.Like Caeser's description 'Veni, Vedi, Vici.
Three words, crisp and starting with V which somehow reminds people of distinctiveness.

Also another interesting thing was...........Ever thought about it...whenever we give instructions/ descriptions to people about where things are located/ kept , we give them in such a way that if the listener were to look for them they would just follow the sequence of the sentence and then get to the destination concerened.Although grammatically placing one clause before the other wouldn't be wrong we never do so.An instance would be as follows.
The book is upstairs, on your right, in the top shelf of the cupboard, right across from the blue folder.Now the right across from the blue folder could have been before we described that the book was in the top shelf, but we do not do so.
Now is it that cognitive linguistics are trying to study this phenomenon.However what remains to be found is whether it will make a huge difference in perception if this order were changed.I think it would certainly affect their cognitive maps.

I would leave you with an age old Chomskian argument "Words do not make sense without meaning even though they follow the right syntax, for e.g the following sentence is grammatically correct but semantically it doesn't make any sense at all.
Colorless green ideas sleep furiously!!!!!!!!!!!!
So well think about why you speak the next time you do and wonder whether the motivation behind your language is the same as another person's......................................................

Auto - Show 2006

The day had finally arrived (February 18th 2006) , unvieling the desires, overcoming the excitement..................... the final rush....the kick that acceleration sounds give us..... CHICAGO AUTO SHOW!

Probably the nation's biggest Autoshow and so far as the range of machines on display......well everything from the usual Toyota Camry to the very desirous Aston Martin and Maseretti.

With a group of 7 people it was hard keeping track of where who was, in throngs of millions in the Mc Cormick place (just over a million sq. feet of space for showcasing these beauties)

It's hard to believe what a beautifully designed car can do to your adrenaline.Yes you right.It shoots up to no bounds.

Starting the show with Ferraris and Porsches on display was almost like walking in dream county.

It hurt a hell lot not to be able to even touch these splendid speedsters , however oogling at them was not taxed.Posters were out so didn't get any of those, except one for a Volkswagen.Nevertheless, photos were good enough.Yes it is one of these events when you really love having a digital camera..............

There were SUVs, two doors, trucks, Jeeps, Bikes (wish they'd let us ride them though) and yeah a lot lot many concept cars.Concept cars are more or less like dream cars.They are still in their conception stage, new ideas are incorporated and functionality is honed till they actually arrive in the market for a fair share in the consumer trade.

Oogling at the beauties got a little boring after a while.Yes coming from an ardent car lover, this sounds pathetic, but what should I say afterall human heart is sensitive to disappointments more than it is to moments of happiness.Sheer joy of seeing a car leads to a myriad other wants ; namely; being able to afford a luxury like a BMW convertible two door, or a Infiniti Coupe.Nah that's hard to surpass the reality that probably it will be until eternity till I am able to get one of those.Yeah there are short cuts like some of my friends were talking about..............Marrying a guy who has one of these.But then again it's an ego hassle......No marry for money , honey............

Anyways so after much ado and a lot of heart ache, I managed to curb the desire of taking one of those beauties with me.Simple reason (not that I don't have money) I don't have a driving license yet.

One of the most exciting things I have done in the U.S of A so far....................

A thrill, a rush a kick unknown,

cars aplenty owners unknown,

designers unnamed, companies pride

I wish all these memories always dwell by my side!!

MAIN HOON NAA

MAIN HOON NAA

1. Every time you wonder if anyone really cares for you or not , don't hesistate to ask,
3. Every time you think the worlds falling apart, don't stop to cry

Everytime you question the rights of friends don't be disappointed.

For you least expect someone around, there are loads of people out there.

Just give a call , for I'm only what 10 digits away, Ask for my advice it's free anyways.

Or just ask me to listen and I promise I won't say a word.

Empty your sore misgivings , we'll try to do what we should.

I'm there for you like you've been there for me before , Goodness given is goodness restored

What's the world if it ain't social enough to have all the sadness cleared????????

Sympathy No More

Every year the time of the year when I feel so low, lower than dust sometimes, has arrived finally.
14 th February, a day they say to show your love.A day they say when you express your deepest feelings for someone you care for.
Well for me every year in the past and this one too, this day hasn't brought much luck.
Of course there have been friends who shower their love and gifts too.Yes in that aspect I am not totally abandoned, do get to experience minimal human affection.
However , like a close friend of mine would comment.....The constant 'petting' that I need sometimes is on a very low supply chain.
I am an attention seeking, affection wanting, love demanding individual but I ask no one's sympathy.
Well I may be standing on the shore of an ocean and stretching my arms wide open to embrace every single lovely human being that I think is worth sharing my time with,
but if you disagree which you might and have the right too, my only request is .......No more sympathies I bequeth.
I dislike every minute when friends say , hey what are you doing this V - D....and then they sort of stop short of completing their question.I wonder what stops them? Guilt, mockery or even worse sarcasm.....intending on hey what could she do, poor her doesn't have anyone in her life right now.
Well to these and others who show this sympathetic approach, I don't care ....I am happy the way I am. I live like a queen and enjoy my freedom.
I live in earnest that someday I will meet the man of my dreams and then again Valentine's won't be any different for to me it's just another day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LET GO

Early morning I wake up to a bright blue Monday,
Snowflakes that drift past wish could catch them in sachets,
Let go my sleep and let go the peace of the day

Standing by the desk, I wait for a call.
Thinking someone is going to let me in on some low,
Hearing the best from people and ignoring the rest
I let go of the tensions with deepest earnest.

Slowly the clock ticks past, I move on with the tasks,
A police officer, some anger and cooperation without much slog
I wonder why things go so wrong when you wish they wouldn't
I let go the reins and harness patience.

Lunch it is then I decided I'd have,
a friend or a collegue to seat herself by the table,
frustration of the job and too much to do,
Let go I said to her, only then will your emotions will be stable.

Coffee with someone, a big theory to learn.
senses and colors hover in the setting sun
Let go I tell her, let go of your fears
for if you don't love ought to bring tears.

The night brings peace,
filled with preperation of all kinds
shadows sleep in a darkness well
Let go I say of the world and in your own embrace tonite you dwell !!!!!!!

A Nameless Day

Nameless I say for I don't know how to qualify the noun,

Loads of nerves but not a single frown......

If the day starts and we don't do anything,

We feel lost, unaccomplished , filled with nothing!

Today begun quite a lot, meetings, classes and library lab stuff

Putting together a schedule was so tough.

Had lunch @ Watterson, Salad and Coffee with Amaretto,

Caffeine is bad they say, but I never seem to give it up.

Resume Updates, Applications filled and every other list that I was set to do.

Bills that were paid was like money from accounts vanishing ditto!

All the same, a meeting done, souls convinced, hearts won.

Henna tattoos and smiles a galore

The day ended with studies and food coupled with laughter pure!

'When The City of Destiny calls.'

RANG ---- DE----- BASANTI..... and more.

The day was bright and sunny.The moods all upbeat except one.And the time perfect.

Planning is often hard and when you take the task of making everyone happy, it's seldom successful.

Nevertheless, we all set out on a big trip to the city of destiny. I am not kidding.It was really where we went on Saturday.The name of the place is Des Plaines.Literally speaking described as the city of destiny.This is a local hub of sophisticated people of Chicago suburbs,close to the village of Shaumberg.

We set out from our home at around noon.With lunch and a family visit in mind, reaching the destination soon was driving all of us nuts.

Music accompanied with lot of Chit Chat and useless arguments of anything and everything ranging from food to love were good time and boredom killers.

Finally after a beautiful,hassle free two hours drive we reached Shaumberg.

First stop : Lunch buffet at India House.Probably the first and only well decorated Indian Restaurant I have seen in Illinois till now.Really impressive decor and yet pocket friendly!

Food? Dosa, Idali (till date I am still confused about the right spelling....) , Naan, Paneer Maakhani, Chicken Curry and Gulabjamun topped the list of buffet favorites.

We ate till our hearts content and the driving force was the since the place is so beautiful and the food range is decent and the food also tastes alright, the price ought to be high.Yes another of those factors which make people overeat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To our dismay the buffet price was lower than expected and that made us really sad.Yeah who would be sad with a little money saved........But we were.

So off we were to my friend's sister's house.The village of Shaumberg has several number of fellow Desis living there.Infact its kind of an all Indian neighborhood so to say.

Each time I visit my friend's sister, I feel her daughter has become even more cuter.This time however I was going to see this kiddo after almost 6 months.And given that infants progress geometrically in late infancy and early childhood, I was not surprised at all to see this smart kiddo do all the stunts that she was doing.

Draped in a beuatiful white Ghagra - Choli, embroidered with mirrors, she could give Aishwarya a run for her money!

Took tons of photos.Yes people think now that I am a camera freak but what is the use of a digital camera if you do not make the most of it.

An hour or a little over that was spent in Shaumberg and then we bid goodbye to the kiddo, who wouldn't want us to leave.Anyways we were then finally off to our final destination.The movie theatre.It was about 25 mins. away from where we were.We reached the actual venue ten minutes early.However as fate is , we still took a wrong left turn and landed on a street with no turns, no u- turns and no short cuts with tons of ice and thus very very low speed.

We managed to somehow find our way through all this and reached the place for the movie.Got the tickets and went in and sat amongst about two scores of others who were just like us.....yes Desis.

The movie had already started.I hate it when people miss even a little bit of the movie.But this time it wasn't that bad.Afterall I think my patience has proabably increased atleast a tiny wee bit more than what it was in high school.

Anyways so the movie...........Rang de Basanti posed a big question to me or rather it made me wonder why people hype movies so much.If they do why do I trust other peoples' opinions and even if I do that why am I ruesome when a movie comes along that is good but leaves a bitter feeling in my heart too.Somehow somewhere something in the movie made me think what I was doing abroad and why I am not doing anything to change the way things are in my homeland.Is it because I am waiting for getting an opportunity or is it sheer diffusion of responsibility? Or is it that I am scared to take initiative.Whatever it is, it is unsettling and it has made me even more determined to return back home after I finish with my studies here in the States and do something worthwhile which will change the face of the future for the coming generations in my Matrubhoomi.

Overall the movie was good.It was really good to see for a change that five heros in the movie acted their share equally well and talent was not wasted.Music was a treat for the ears and the Indian Air Force planes , a treat to the eyes.

Loved the song, Luka chupi bahut hui saamne aaja na.............Cried a great deal, and then again there were moments I could stop laughing like Aamir's laugh riot song"SUEkar mere mann ko...." Cool locales of North India and yes........................ the place where the friends would love to hang out.That cool cliff which was right beside water where they danced and sang a number of times.

Indian Cinema is changing, and so are the people.Often I wonder , does the society mirror cinema or is it the other way around.Besides the violence, booze and rallying shown in the movie, I would really be impressed if youth picked up a good message from the movie.

To end this write up , I'd narrate one of Aamir's dialogues : "There are just two ways to lead a life; one: Sit quietly and watch whatever is happening and two: constructively criticize take it upon you to change things."

"No country is perfect. You have to make it perfect.And hopefully we all shall!"

Well I am determined to fall in the second path of life.What about you?

BRANDED FOR LIFE

I thought I should blog today a little about why I am the way I am.....and I couldn't get past the first two words.Precisely recollecting those words I think they were: I am......and then there was a long akward silence in my mind after that.

Many of my friends love to hang out with me or they are great actors (if they genuinely dislike my company but constantly agree to hang out with me).They call me names behind my back (good and bad) but lately I am surprised people have been fairly courageous to say things on my face.Which is not bad at all, given the fact that I am a big propogator of frank attitudes.

Either ways ,it all started to stir in my mind with a comment that I have heard several times over the past month or so.......
"You are her mom!!!" they said.Yeah who doesn't want to have a kid but I wonder what does that imply in a world where every girl loves to be a hot babe in a DINK (double income/ no kids) kinda world.

Perhaps,I am overprotective of my friends.I cannot see them fall in a pit right in front of my eyes.Perhaps I am over altruistic.
I cannot help but help others?
I think that is my problem.I wonder what would happen if I were not so over protective.But then again I wonder what are friends for if they don't stop you before you trip and fall.I cannot be amongst those who laugh when a friend falls, or amongst those who say "Oh I could have helped you. You should have told me!"

I am just the way I am may be because I need to help others to affirm my existence.I need to be a mommy to attest my survival.
In school I was often ridiculed as the simple kid, In college the conservative,naive on-looker, After graduation I was termed the wanna - be and now I am mommy(I absolutely have been branded as the mom of lost kids on campus here), the only reason for this categorization because I cannot let new friends here feel alone,homesick, hungry and sad.Or is it because friends trust me and take me to be a good friend?
Several names but not one describes me rightly.Let alone justly.

A quick look at what the future holds for me.............I don't even wish to do that, for fear I'd see some other unjust categorization.I wonder why people get branded, I wonder why no one explains.I wonder if there is even a rationale to everything that everyone claims!

In the end I think it's better I stop wondering!

IN - DEPENDENCE

Often wondered whether the blue sky depends on the brown soil, down below
whether the human creed trusts their pals fellow....
I often hope I needn't want to care about anyone so much as you.
I often hope I would not be dependent on you.

For at times you are ruthless, you cut all strings attached,
Somehow most often we have arguments patched,
Little does it mean to you to slam your opinion on me,
Little do you care for what my tenets might be!!!!
I never ill - intend, but you insist I do,
I never am rude but you feel apologies are due.

I cherished every moment we have shared,
I shared every bit of detail
I promise I shouldn't have spared even a little bit
On my deepest sorrows , someone's joy isn't fit.

I wonder why you cannot fathom the truth.....
I wonder why sweet words wouldn't my heart soothe...
I wonder why you are walking far away..
I wonder if I was just another prey

Prey to end your boredom,
Prey to end the disasterous plight,
Pray wouldn't have to let go ever of my freedom
and in - dependence fight !!!!!!!