Sunday, November 27, 2005

And my heart melts...........

A Dad calling his baby daughter princess and fussing over her in excess,
Sweet lilting lullaby he sings to her while she is in distress, soothing voice calms her and peacefully she does recline,
Dads shoulder’s her bed and his love her true lifeline.

A wistful face and a weary hand, asking for alms begging for bread,
A shining dollar on that palm we have spared, nevertheless the fear we dread,
Never, Never should such life befall us, Never, Never should wealth betray us!

A small kid in a candy store, asking mom to buy some more,
a little piece of Twix, or another pack Hershey’s kisses
mischievous smile and sunny faces
Never does the kiddo give up, hoping till the eternity
Bill is ringed up and the transaction ends,
Mom finally has settled for a little treaty
One more chocolate only if the the kid behaves,
Extra homework and no TV he trades.

A beautiful misty evening I witness, rainbow over the horizon stretches
Far where the blues hug the fluffy whites,
Long walks on sandy beaches,
Or lush green woods on an enchanting island, a little sorrow and lots of love in heart
Forming memories that will never tear the soul apart.

Coming back home of a war soldier,
Safe and sound to his family’s honor
Pride and joy are no bound but apprehension stays when will it be time again??????
Goodbyes are hard but to enjoy freedom you have to bear the pain!

A loved one declaring how much he loves you,
Saying thousand things silently,
Telepathy when it works and other times when mistaken thoughts battle and clear the way
Let the person speak his mind and get away

Knowing exactly what you are going to do next, helping another to achieve the dreams he dreamt
Learning to live for what someone cares about this is the hardest thing ever without a doubt!

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Broke but bliss in Boston and mystified by manhattan!

A small travelogue of my sojourn I write,
On this tuesday not so bright!
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19th Nov 2005
Cab comes in 10 mins early.....Now i was expecting it to come late.Anyways so off to the airport in Bloomington.
Wonderful flight delay.Why?
Pilot couldn't recieve any contact from the airport terminal and this he explained to the passengers.A good way to boost our morale and ask us to wait patiently.......
Landing at Chicago.
Caffeine at Starbucks.One good thing I love about Amrika....Starbucks......
And yes yet again this flight delayed too.
Didn't have anything to do.Called a friend.Got yelled at the next day.Forgot the time difference.Nevermind.Had a good chat with my sweet little sister across the seas and she didn't yell!That was fun.Made plans for next month.One month and I shall be home.Oh Home sweet home!
Met a lady in flight.An Indian physicist's wife.Was fun talking about 'mein Vaterland : Germany.'
12:30 pm ....Safe landing at Boston Logan International Airport.
Baggage not delayed, friend was on time at the airport to recieve me.
Fun time begins!
A few bus rides and train stops and then some more walking and we finally reached North Eastern University.
Met one of the most noble characters I've ever met in life.
A guitarist, a mechanical engineer, a volunteer for the science museum, an artist and yes my nick name for him....;Mean Mallu...Though there wasn't a mean bone in his body.
My friend's boyfriend is really a sweet guy.Good company with him and his roomies.Walked around Prudential Centre and the First Church.
Tried hard to shop at Dolce and Gabbana,H & M, and such like...... but couldn't spend a buck! Why? I don't know.
Evening met an old college friend who was a hilarious entertainer for the whole gang as usual.Calzone, Pizzas and Tiramisu at Bertucci (A recommendation for anyone who wants amazing food)
Good food ; truffles for desert and yes a good nights' sleep to end the day.
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20th Nov 2005
Missed the bus.Friend sees the wrong schedule.So compensation.........cappucino at Starbucks.
Hmmmm now wide awake and waiting for the bus.Talking about love life and the topic never ends.
Reached no conclusions.Bus ride ends and we reach downtown Boston.
Went for dinner cum lunch (since it was already 4:30 pm). Again an Italian place.....Cafe Pompeii. One helluva romantic place.White furnishings and blue soothing lights.The night was chilly and the coats kept us warm but what really hightened some of our spirits were the Chocolate martinis.I didn't have any.Don't know why!
A drive over to Harvard University in Cambridge.'Ivy League' they call it and I think that's an understatement.Just the walls could inspire a dudd to study hard.BEAUTIFUL. is all I can sum it to be!
Because no words can measure what that one moment of bliss was!
Ride back home....ofcourse no buses or trains.A nice ride in a Camry.
My friend and I couldn't talk anymore so in no time....we were dozing off.
SONG OF THE DAY : Jaise tu by a pakistani pop group from the album Daira........melodious.
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Last day in Boston
21 st Nov 2005
Boston Commons. Beautiful Monday morning.
Lunch at P.F.Changs.All for the great wall of chocolate.A delicious desert we get at P.F.Changs.
Yummy food coupled with peals of laughter.Good times.And then we had to run to South Station so I could catch atleast the three o clock bus to New York! ( Had already postponed my departure from 1 to 2 and then from 2 to 3 pm.)
Arrival in New York was very eventful.
Got out at Chrystie Street in China Town and had to find Port Authority.
To my luck a man gave me wrong directions.So off I went by the wrong train to downtown NYC.While purchasing a single ride ticket I had unwilling conversations with a bunch of kids who were trying to sell me some cigarettes.I don't know why!
Got out at 34th Street and asked a cop for directions and he told me something completely opposite of what that man had said.So for a moment i wanted to ask him...
" Hey are you kidding me?" anyways thought in the interest of the country's security I should believe the cop rather than the man and finally found my way.
Nevertheless had this episode with the cab i hired. Hmmmmm one dude from Pakistan.Trying to be extra friendly,Asking me to hang out with him sometime..."I'll take you around he said" I was baffled at his cheek.I hated every moment i was in that cab.So i just punched in the fare through the window and vanished into the crowds at Port authority bus terminal.
3 mintues left for the bus to depart and I still didn't have a ticket.
Ran to get the bus.As though it had been waiting only for me.Got a seat way back in the bus!
Approximately 9:30 pm ...Bus breaks down.
Viola!!!!!!!!!!! what more could go wrong?????? I was just laughing to my heart's content.
When in misery Smile. It makes you go that extra mile!
It took another half an hour for everyone to get transfered to another bus and finally make it to 76 Tappan House.
Goodness Garcious............Was i tired, or was I tired?
Had a simple meal of Dal , Chawal and enjoyed the last bits of MADAGASCAR, a laugh riot!
Slept........in the cold, cold confines of my quilt!
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AND NOW THE FAMILY FUN BEGINS.
At the moment # of people in the house : 8
By the evening it will be :10
By tomorrow (expected arrivals) total # will be : 14
And Wednesday night will be Full House : 22 !!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Thoughts

Myriad Colors hover in the air, it’s absolutely disastrous to cry ‘Unfair’
When desert sands whirl in a storm, hell breaks loose and
Fear stops every demand.

Thirty three thousand times I tell myself don’t hurt yourself ,
Never does heart learn from the past! New things keep interacting with the old,
Conversations thus turn even more bold

Today I swear I decided not to emote, Not to shed a tear , nor a sigh evoke,
I broke my promise I apologize to myself.I didn’t heed to my brain’s request.
Brain had told me to keep emotions aside, decide what was profitable and measure each stride

How things don’t matter when you cannot compromise on your principles,
Ethics and laws and all those complications.

I go through tough times , when I cannot decide,
Between the goods and bads and the ugly and the nice,
There is of course unwanted need of kindness that we need to suffice.
I go on helping thousands galore, forget what it is once to live for the self allure,
Love the neighbour more than one’s own kith and kin,
I sometimes feel ashamed of my unsjust sin!

I changed this policy from today on.
No more sadness and misery sharing would go on.
I want to stay as far from crowd as possible,
Being a stranger amongst friends is a mark indelible.

Decision tough to make and tougher to stand by,
Promises made to myself atleast this time I can’t deny
I will once again decide though….This I have never done before.
Then I go on thinking this were a new start,
Sporting spirit and will to achievement holds.
I start a fresh page in the book of rights,
I decipher what my friends hide.


Anger and sympathy we ask for often,
How about thinking and giving away some solution,
Love and luck are both important.
Life there on is contingent.

Leave me and let me breathe soft and low,
Let me stay lull in my own cocooned tow.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Till death do us apart

"I do" two powerful words I believe,
one starts to define oneself and in a moment you have given away all reprieve
when a woman says 'no' she means a yes,
'let me go means I need more caress!'

The man's 'not a problem' is 'duh yeah what do you expect now?'
'Thirty years with this woman has been like heaven' just reveals unknown definition of hell above?.
Working their way through such cryptic arts , these couples could have been detectives of all sorts.

Love one said was confusing enough to star in Matrix
Radically, practical , calculative and enticing.
Neo wouldn't know where to find Trinity
had he only searched deep within his heart till infinity!

I write on and on blabbered nonsense for some,
to others it is yet another lesson learnt.
to me it is history revisited
experiments done and advise heeded.

Help is on it's way they say.
Form and kind unknown today.
The one made for you may well show you the moon
Nevertheless in your own eyes don't let yourself become a cartoon!

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Bemusings

Ever wondered what life could be living under the microscope.
Being watched for the first breath taken,condemned for the last one mistaken?

Ever wondered what it would be like to have candlelight dinners, every night under the startlit sky, have your loved one shower love on a teasing fight ?

Ever wondered how soon life can change ? A moment in the past and no sooner
are you spaced , the roles are cast the stage is set.

Ever wondered why people ask questions , they themselves don't know answers to.

Ever wondered why endless silences tell you more than a thousand words?
Sweet nothings imagined are rejoiced more than messages on bulletin boards.

Ever wondered why Fall steps in with colors and slowly lets the blithe walk away leaving just the white snow.
Never thought why a remark would hurt someone,just a glance or a stare create a spark unknown.

Ever wondered why we never stop and think? Ever wondered why we don't in movies blink?
Ever wondered why I wonder so much and you don't?It's not to late yet to wonder ever!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, November 04, 2005

THE RIFT

"Misunderstanding it is" she said, "you are so wrong."
"I don't agree" I say, "I am sure it's some other thing that had come along."

An assumption was made, a decision taken,
She refrained from further discussion.

"'Understanding' I said, I think is a two way process,
One alone has never had success."

When people put two and two together they often add another one unknowingly
And if they don't do so they surprisingly forget one of the two very willingly.

The effect remains.The sum is different from the parts and a rift is created.
'Gestalt' would be so disappointed for once the sum doesn't facilitate, it has us disappointed.

A little extra effort on your part and mine can go a long way.
Don't you think asking questions is better than leaving confusion abay?

Think once and let me know if you are one of those who has never miscommunicated,
never had a misunderstanding.
Seen the results, been through those times that are caused by misunderstandings that are unnerving!

I wish we all walk that extra mile and ensure that we never assume.
We clarify, we simplify and we would thus ban all misgivings that usually sublime!

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

The festival of lights....diwali

Diwali, it used to be the most awaited festival of the year , every year, year after year.
It was fun meeting the whole family.A total of 40 cousins, dozen aunts and uncles, couple of grannys and grandpas and yes of course tons of friends...............those from school, college and later even the university.

Spent say in all 23 Diwalis.Of which 5 I didn't pretty much remember anything from.The next 5 my only attraction in Diwali used to be new clothes, lots of fire crackers (which anyways i didn't get many since I was environment friendly and at the same time hell scared of noise of fire crackers right from the time i was a tiny tot!)

So of the 13 that remained, 3 we didn't celebrate in response to respect for deaths in my family.

Sad enough that 3 others, we were on vacation, in various parts of the country.Now considering the fact that only 7 others were left I think 2 of those I have been in USA....therefore haven't celebrated Diwali in the traditional Indian way.Just going to an Indian restaurant for Indian food is the kind of celebration we've had here.
Here we are just 5 Diwalis that I had spent in the traditional style with family and friends.I am sure of those I remember just 1 which was one and the only time 30 members of my family travelled to northern Maharashtra, Chandrapur and celebrated diwali together.That was an awesome fun time....................

I don't feel sad anymore that I am not with my family for Diwali this year because when I thought about all this and disected the facts right I realized that I haven't really celebrated Diwali much even when I was in India, with everyone due to one reason or the other.

Nevertheless the heart longs to return home and keeps complaining of having missed the festive times.But the brain holds it back, tells it to shut up and think. Heart dear can never think.What can I say if only we'd have just one of the two ...either the heart or the brain ...life wouldn't be so confusing.Whatsay????????