Ummm....

Colorless green ideas sleep furiously!
~ Noam Chomsky.

The sentence says all i want to convey.Perfect Syntax doesn't always complete communication effectively.
Is it always so useful to be politically correct? Is it useful at all for that matter?
It is at times good to say things others would not like to hear if they are necessary.It is hard though!

************ Thought of the day!************

"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within."
~ Elizabeth Kubler-Ross ~

Up and Above!

A warm sunny day filled with clouds,
teasing and chiding ,planning hideouts,
the spells of rain shower,
dry heated dust wants to savor
the sweetness of breath and
the warmth of love
the trouble with desire is like untamed fire,
uncouth, unaware, unmeshed......
pure and raw ; it hurts me who is ill fated,
I want to stop that feeling,
don't want or long or pine;
love need not be reciprocated because
don't most of us think it is divine?

I've lost something!

Lost something a little while ago,

have no idea where to find it,

have no idea why do i need to,

have no idea where to go,

have no idea when will i get it back,

have no idea what will pacify my soul,

have no idea how things will change,

have no idea who will help out,

have no idea, have no idea at all.

Buckle up Dorothy!For Kansas is going Bye Bye........

A Break and that too a long deserved one or for someone like me who doesn't get too many of those, a most wanted break we can say.Last week happened to get about three days off.No work , no studies or rather I chose not to part- take in any of those activities, essentially a part of my identity right now.
All this rambling is just an introduction to what? well a quick 'JAUNT' as a friend names it...To Kansas ....Beautiful, serene Kansas.
Yes this was indeed the same place where they had a tornado about three days before I landed there.Severe weather expected and yeah two friends who were so busy on the day I arrived.
But they made time for me.Made good food for me.Took care that I enjoyed every moment I was there.Introduced me to their friends and in short enjoyed the break to the hilt.
Good food included a stint to a restaurant called ZEN ZERO in downtown Lawrence.Ever end up in that town.....trust me ...this place is a must visit.Affordable and delicious food.Pad Thai was awesome and what was even more interesting is all of us ate with chopsticks quite successfully and patiently.
Besides all the fun evenings and the pooling night...........the last day in Kansas City downtown stole all laurels for this trip.Built on the lines of a Spanish province Seville..........this small area of Kansas City called Plaza was charming.Colors merged with the serene landscape and beautiful statues complimented the spanish villa style buildings.
The Barnes and Noble here is wonderful.If there was one thing I didn't like about this trip was saying Goodbyes to all and especially to my dear friends.....But I guess we have to go away so we can meet again......anew , enthused and yes ever loving ...............

Will miss you a lot......

Sleep deprived & Indian food deprived succumbs to Blogging

Almost a week I had been dreaming to get a regular 8 hour beauty sleep this week. My usual quota of sleep now is somewhere between 4 to 5 hours a day. Absolutely ridiculous for I know this lack of sleep doesn’t let me function to my full potential. Nevertheless I do not mind it because I hardly have an alternative.
Finally after a hard duty night and room checks (about 200) and another grueling 4 hours working at the front desk, I finally was free to leave for the night.
Yup! It’s that unexpected freedom that sometimes appalls us more than the feeling of being tied to something.I didn’t know what to do first.
Just took a quick shower, changed, and got all dressed to go bowling with friends. Did that. Lost both the games. I hate losing a game. I don’t know why!!!!!! But yeah it was fun.
Specially one of my friend’s was exasperated with her futile attempts to master the art of successful bowling……Which can be defined as where the ball hits at least one of the ten pins. She was eventually crowned the Gutter Queen.‘The Itchy from Trichy’ was another of my friends who gave us several techniques of how to play well…..inspite of not being able to play to his fullest potential (or so he claimed)
My two other friends just commented on every single thing that they could think of and scrapped my plan of going to the Indian restaurant like nobody’s business but who cares about food when one is having sooooo much fun?????
I talked to a few friends home…..Back in India two of my school buddies are tying the knot pretty soon! It was so exciting to talk to them, find out how they met their respective sweethearts and yes also argue about why the wedding had to take place in my absence(?????? Which anyways I don’t have much of a say in)
Then we all (the 5 bowling champs) went over to a friend’s place and watched a wonderful movie ….called ‘A FEW GOOD MEN’.
It was a good movie and Tom Cruise looked amazingly smart. Jack Nicholson was probably at one of his best performances in this one.
ENJOYED IT TO THE T!
Came home late around 3 am and whoops, lay in bed counting stars……….Yes quite literally was trying to count stars on a densely cloudy night…….The moon looked awesome though. Called home, and then called some folks over in Mumbai.
It was good to talk so freely, since I finally have a break. But guess what….the spring break hasn’t even started and I am getting even lesser sleep that before………..Had to work at 6:00 am so that means had to get ready by 5:50 am.
In short, slept an hour and a half after I finished chit chatting with my folks about this, that and the other.
Hopefully spring will bring in some good luck.
Hope to get some work done……………and loads of sleep..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz………..

Rendenzvous

Well what do you expect? It's women's day they said.......A poetry slam in some shack or a coffeehouse or something, Nah, I had better things to do today! I retorted...
Like think about robots and how real life thinking doesn't help to build real perceptive robots.
I was breaking my neck over some research done way back in 1987 and believe me, I loved to read this paper.It was by an Artificial Intelligence researcher from MIT , U.S.A and what do you expect when you read work by one of the prolific reserachers in robotics from one of the best institutions of the country of his time................

"Sheer exhuberance of his own bombasity???????"No , not at all.Infact the paper was a modest attempt to put things into the right perspective.
As I got done with the paper and was about to leave I saw an old friend of mine.I hope she didn't think I pounced on her the minute I saw her............But seriously I was so so so so happy to see her.Not that we are amazingly close friends, but nevertheless I don't know why I think she happens to be just one of those few people I can connect with.I can talk to, even without talking tons of words. I was delighted atleast we could exchange a few sentences before she was on a way out to some show, she was going to attend.But yeah that was quite an experience and I think that really put me in a good mood.
I came home and dealt with a horrible work issue, with dirty undone laundry, dishes and a lot of homework but deep down in my heart I was contended.Why? I still don't know. But I was experiencing a little happiness I guess.Haven't been used to that happening lately but yeah life doesn't fail to surprise me every now and then

I think there are people who make you go out of your way to avoid even a glance and then there are those OTHERS who inspire you.............
Inspire not in the sense to be like them, but just give you enough inspiration to have the courage to be YOURSELF..........
To celebrate your own persona and be the queen / king of your own personal bubble.To such friends
I dedicate this blog and to my dear friend whom I met today.......
Kudos to you! Don't know what's it about your personality that I admire so much but just think that

To be you is to revere independence, to celebrate thought and to emulate enthusiasm!

THANK YOU for being YOU!

TALK TO ME.............

Heart : "So what you upto today you miniscule organ , one whole bundle of funny neurons, entangled nerves and so many electric potentials going up and down all day?"
Brain : "Will be just chilling in the confusion today."How about you? Are you busy today? Feeling anything at all?"
Heart: "Yeah a few wants have been on my mind recently (psk psk.....giggling brain at this point)
Brain : "YOU ? have a mind too?" "Now when did that happpen?"
Heart: "Is somebody feeling threatened now?" I mean I have decided to catch up on some skill sets that I was a stranger too.
Brain : "Now are you going to claim that you can do a better job of thinking than me?"
Heart : "Now when did I claim that.Wow you can surely read between words!"
Brain: "So what is the whole confusion about?" Have you consulted your action department at all?" "Is there nothing they can do for you to relax a bit?"
Heart : " Oh I've tried it all.Now I have just decided to play low, and do what feels right."
Brain : "Hey let me know if you need anything. I will be there for you!"
Heart: " Yeah right!!!!!!! After all the overtime work that you have indulged in (thinking, imagining, contemplating etc etc) You think I am going to call you?" Yeah no problem...I will call you if I need you. Thank you.
Brain : "Ah well it was my responsibility to ask, but yeah once again I say........Don't think too much....Your job is just to feel, not think......"
Heart : "Well you are right and I shall feel too......it's just that since I need to feel right, I gotta think right too.."
Brain : "Hope you feel better soon"
Heart : "Hope you stop thinking too much..................For then I shall definitely feel better soon!"
Brain : "Ya alrite, truce.......I won't think now on.I will just not think!"
Heart : "Hell you won't, why do you always have to go to the other end of the spectrum, can't you just be neutral?"
Brain:"yeah like think and not think? IS that being neutral in your terms? Ha hah ha ha I'll try that.Sure"
Heart : "Well you don't need to mock at me.All I want for God sake is a little peace of mind"
Brain : "ha Ha ha ha ha haha haha haha So now here we go again....Peace of MIND!!! the mind, one mind , your mind????? Ha ha ha ha ha. We'll see how that happens....Good Luck!"
Heart: "Yeah thank you very much! I think I will get my peace of mind...............Whether you support me or not" Good bye!
Brain :"Bye Bye!" Take care darling confused organ with a bundle of veins and artiries pumping the hell out've you.!!!!!!!!!!!!"

One of those days....

Yesterday was one of those days when nothing appeals to the human mind.The brain has no qualms about wasting every minute on hand and eventually getting to a point where nothing and noone means anything worthwhile.
It was a totally unfruitful day.If there exists a word like unfruitful.
Talking on the phone, meeting friends, drinking coffee several times (justifying to myself that i needed a break) and yes then meeting friends again, (taking a break to read a couple of articles only) and then to highlight it all a stint to the Mall.


Now I wonder sometimes my life is an open book and everyone can comment on what I do, but when I say this ever so proudly why does it hurt to hear anything about my actions.
I waste time.I fritter at any given opportunity.
I take advice from everyone for I crib to no extent.Am I really in need of a purpose in life?Am i treading on a totally wrong sojourn? Need I assess my values?Does the future hold anything substantial for me.
Now the time is that I just forget answering all these questions and absolutely focus on what needs to be done right now, today.But then I wonder when would I get to answering all these questions?Undoubtedly I have been avoiding them.And I , who has average intelligence, decent resources and sound backing from my social realm.............how can I not be willing to push myself and achieve something.
The only good thing that happened yesterday though was a meeting with a German Professor.And I think it really made me so happy to get an opportunity to talk a few sentences in german with the lady.I will work on my next goal of doing some research study with her.Hope it all works out in the end.
A quote I had read recently said
"IT'S ALL OK IN THE END AND IF IT'S NOT OK IT'S NOT THE END!!!!"

I hope this is true in all it's eternity.
To my new found motivation and to a spirit called LIFE........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Phenomenal Woman

PHENOMENAL WOMAN

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies I'm not cute or built to suit a model's fashion size
But when I start to tell them They think I'm telling lies.
I say It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips The stride of my steps The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

I walk into a room Just as cool as you please
And to a man The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees
Then they swarm around me A hive of honey bees.
I say It's the fire in my eyes And the flash of my teeth The swing of my waist And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

Men themselves have wondered What they see in me They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them They say they still can't see.
I say It's in the arch of my back The sun of my smile The ride of my breasts The grace of my style.
I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

Now you understand Just why my head's not bowed I don't shout or jump about Or have to talk real loud When you see me passing It ought to make you proud.
I say It's in the click of my heels The bend of my hair The palm of my hand The need for my care.
'Cause I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

Maya Angelou

Oh I so love this poem.......I guess many of you out there would love it too.........just phenomenal , isn't it?