this is unbelievably insane!

It's really insane to click on OK and get this as my fortune for the day on an astrological prediction website; especially insane since i get this prediction right after my post yesterday titled 'wild child' ---------------------

" Talk in riddles and say your sentences backward. Be fanciful and outlandish. Most of the information will be relayed in a non-verbal manner. Let your wild side shine through. Wear the wackiest thing in your closet. Don't give in to the social norm just because it's the thing that has been done time and time again."

Do astrological predictions have a grain of truth in them? Time and again this particular website doesn't fail to surprise me.....Sometimes things have happened and I have checked the website and realized that indeed that was the fortune for the day!!!! eeriieeee but true!

Whether stars determine or actions or not is a question no one can answer ....We can probably argue endlessly but i think I like this mystery and when someone can give probabilistic calculations of how the mystery can unravel....I think it is cool!!!!!

WILD CHILD

I want to run on roads without fear of being run over

Steal some breeze , walk away with praise

Climb trees unafraid, pluck flowers for all I please

Hiding somewhere deep within is indeed a wild child in me!

Want to say goodbye without tears in my eyes,

Talk brazenly about how bad the food you cooked was

Look straight at you and tell you how mean you are

Hiding somewhere deep within is indeed a wild child in me!

Lucky is the bird that needs no permits to fly around

Roam around the world like my own playground

Want to eat all the chocolate I want without the world giving me cold stares

Hiding somewhere deep within is indeed a wild child in me!

One day, just one day I want to live my life on just my terms

Unabashed, uninhibited but in a sea of anonymity that never discerns

Do not care what and who says how I should be.

Just want to free the wild child hiding within me.

Lake of Love

In the lake of love they waddle away

swimming in the waters they turn their backs and each other dare

white as snow the black necked swans,

red beaked and teary eyes that match the darks.

One of them turns and looks away from the other

solemn and sad wondering whether

The other quickly grasps a small piece of weed in beak

picks it up; takes it to his sweetheart to seek

the love and care that has been hidden in those eyes, all of a sudden comes like a surprise

bewildered yet happy the swan swims in glory

she takes the weed and falters around hunky - dory

the weed in that beak is almost like solace, hard to find and yet commonplace

Beautifully they waltz yet again, teasing and turning in waters green

jolly good times they have spent in this lake of love pristine!

IRKSOME

To see someone not smile anymore takes you a while
Out of sight does not always work!
To see you missed a train hurts a hell lot
When you want something badly, the wholeuniverse conspires you to get it... is false!
To eat lunch and get an impromptu lunch invite that has to be refused
There are indeed no free lunches in this world!
To love somebody and not be loved back
Sad but true there ain't no true love in this world baby!
To learn a new word and forget the meaning
A fool and folly are seldom apart!
Buying new clothes every month is a wonderful feeling
Innovation sometimes ruins your bank balance!

Try some!

I am an ardent lover of food.......And here's a list of some favorites probably worth a try if you would like to................Buy it. cook it or ask someone to invite you for it............ They are just delicious..........

• Entenmann's fudge brownie bites
• Peppridge farms (rasberry) Milano cookies
• Spinach and Artichoke Dip with Tostitos (hint of lime flavor)
• Watermelon juice with a little lemon
• Orange, Kiwis and Mint juice with crushed ice
• Eggplant Parmesan Sandwich at TGIF (TGI Fridays)
• Mango rum with gingerale (I do not recommend this for alcoholics)
• A fresh Iceberg lettuce salad with carrots and tomatoes and Catalina (italian) dressing
• Haagen Dazs Mint chip Icecream
• Pad Thai (veggie + tofu) in a decent Thai restaurant

Well try some of these and let me know if they were good.......................

by the way none of the companies pay me anything for promotions.......... so if you are one of the companies and I am recommending you then please think about some goodwill.....I am always open to gifts....and free dinners .............

Role playing

Dearest Mr.Macho
It's such a pleasure writing to you. I have always admired your muscular thoughts and your stonelike emotions. How are you capable of always being so focused and not letting any kind of happiness or sadness get in your way of living?
I always wonder what would life be if each of us could live like you do and act like you do.
Would being ambitious and running after achievement be the answer to everybody else's problems. Those meek ones who cry and feel and think and in front of God kneel?
Little have I seen any courage and pride in anyone else other than you. Oh hail ye almighty, I praise thee today for your aloofness, your supreme introvertness and your ability to stay away from all that is human and talkative.
It is so vain and yet so adorable to see you strut through the hurdles of life, kicking away all relations and freeing yourself from the chains of dependents. Must be taking a toll on your time allocated for personal grooming.
Do you always strive so hard to follow the cult of 'cool'dom? Or do you ever stir away and think of getting distracted by worldly pleasures of simplicity and boredom?
I have always been in awe of your pompusness and grandeur. Has never been anyone and shall never be like you. Unique, Self focused and wonderfully talented that you are do you ever think this life would be any different had you not taken a step or two towards selfishness and impression management?
I would also mention the fact that although it is a pity (for I feel they are sheer indicators of human emotional existence)you cannot cry (since society says men cannot cry), you cannot crib (because you like to flaunt how much of motivation you have) I do think you are absolutely invincible when it comes to attaining what we mortals call undaunted impressions on the human mind. I have and many more to come will remember you in their minds for it's so hard to let go of memories of personas like you.
May there be a million more out there just like you, Robotic, determined and emotionless!
Amen!
Sobbingly yours (tears of joy ofcourse)
The Goblin.

Unanswered

I was tagged to complete this list by www.siddharthadelkar.blogspot.com and www.notjustjazz.blogspot.com so I am completing the ordeal....
Actually enjoyed it quite a lot....

I am thinking about when?

I said what?

I want to love whom?

I wish to go where?

I hear silence how?
I wonder really wonder why?
I regret for a while but not all the while.
I am who? I am.
I dance with myself to your tunes....

I sing for myself to my tunes. ......
I cry? Why do I?

I am not always whom?

Do I need to be someone?

I make with my hands guilty of what?
I write plenty nothings which?

I confuse myself and how?
I need to in future lies what?

And finally I realized I have too many questions unanswered but I have a smile on my face because when you smile you look good :)

And now here's tagging a few I know to know some more.....

Victim of Desire

Yatzgad

Swatspace

Nikhil

I R O N I C

Lately I am listening to a lot of new songs and here's one that I just cannot stop listening to.......

It's By Alanis Morissette and is called Ironic

The words go like this................

It's like rain on your wedding day

It's a free ride when you've already paid

It's the good advice that you just didn't take

Who would've thought...it figures

This song says so much to me and still it makes me wonder what is it about these words that make me smile and cry at the same time............ Ironic don't you think ?

In Response to A Mac -Lover

A few days ago a fellow contributor of the blogger world wrote an interesting take on
Mac- o - mania.The title of his blog was Psychosexual attachment to Macintosh. Here is a link to his blog http://siddharthadelkar.blogspot.com/2006_09_06_archive.html
Well quite confidently I decided to write about what Freud's take on psychosexual attachment to Macintosh would be and within a day I was lost in confusion about what my response would be.

I have always thought I enjoyed Freud's theory and the psychoanalytic world gave psychology a lot of pathbreaking ideas. In the time and frame that Freud developed his theory, human psyche was chained, burdened by societal norms, dos' and donts', conflicts and above all uncertainity in life and what better a solution than sex or love?

Everything and anything that resulted in Neurosis was termed to be sexual in nature. Not only is this incorrect but often misinterpreted by a lot of people who read Freud's theory without probably reading the history of the place Freud was based.

Nevertheless coming back to what I decided to write this blog for.Freud's concepts of Id, Ego and Superego can definitely be integrated in the loves for a Mac.
Given we are always striving towards creating a balance between the three, Id is the one that needs to be neglected and overruled by the Superego at times.

Mac-lovers probably would use the delete key often enough to reset their thoughts which translates to Freud's idea of the defense mechanism of 'Repression'.
Or going without food and water, aimlessly sticking to the computer screen trying to code, draw or read and not being interested in the outside world could be signs of a Mac - 0 - neurotic. Treatment of course would consist of psychoanalysis which would examine the childhood experiences of isolation that lead to this personality.

Of course there is a growing field of research out there and I'm sure it won't be long before we unfortunately would need deaddiction centers specifically for Computer addicts / Mac addicts (May be Apple can start working on a deaddiction vaccine!!!) OR Centers that specialize in Mac Abuse Counseling...............

I think Siddharth has a point when he talks about a huge stake for human computer interaction research which so far has concentrated on research on internet addiction but after my brief reading on this topic I didn't come across a single article related to the addictive symptoms of machines themselves......................So people out there......Think think....wake up research needs you!

Giggles

Well something that my roomie said just made us both burst into peals of laughter........
I was asking her if I were to surrender myself to her , do things as if she were controlling me, would she be able to change me, my persona..............

quite calmly she replied.
"No , I don't think so, because you surrender yourself and kidnap me...!!!!!!!!"

Thought it was a really interesting way of capturing reality............. Whatsay roomie...still laughing.......

Light

Today a new day
somehow a new way
I'll follow the sun
for the time has come
good time has begun. 

Well said!

Something that came up in a phone conversation which I would like to remember for some time to come.......... And also they say when you revise memory stands strong even under the tests of forgetting

"Money is a by product of well - directional efforts."
(M.S.N , Sept.2006)
I would like to add to this..... "
and well directional efforts are result of a gamble of choices we make."

A li'l lint ain't doing no harm

As you are rushing to work all clad in a clean black suit or a dress have you gotten jiffy over a small wisp of lint lurking on your shoulder? You turn around and try to squeeze all your visual capacities to find the exact location of that lint, bothersome.....
...... it's right there on your shoulder, you can see it but don't know it's exact location and can't reach it.It is in your field of vision just short of the blindspot. Restlessness. Discomfort. Impatience.
Wondering whether this bit of lint will screw up your morning. Doesn't look neat, does it?
Well what if we just let the lint be. How much of trouble would it be to just let the lint be rather than squirming your eyes in trying to locate it, twisting your arm in trying to remove it and shuddering in constant fear whether there isn't another little bit of it lurking close by which you missed!
Imperfection often brings in peace. Any thoughts?

A ; ~(B v C) . therefore intelligent ?

How often do academicians classify people on the basis of grades. Well not so often but quite often enough too.
An A grade in a course means that the student has shown excellent thought and critical analysis of the subject required of him or her. However I always wonder what justice does this do to a student who has the required expertise in regards to thought and analysis but just lacks the persistence.
Or is bogged down by social pressures and loves to party or play music rather than write a paper for the class
Or is emotionally burdened and cannot think straight. Has tears rolling down the cheeks every single time the thought of home or people close to the heart passes in the mind's eye.
Or just doesn't care about grades.
Well but at some point in life every person who belongs to any of the above categories does wonder what it would have been like if he or she were to belong among the elite A's rather than the Bs or Cs of this world. Are they a different breed or are they just like every other Tom across the street?
Success is measured by what what becomes of you and not from where you became. So good grades to me are a necessity only when they reflect the prowess of the person and not otherwise.
They are not markers of wisdom nor are they indicators of sound rationale and judgement. They are merely showcasing the person's ability to learn and score in the school setting.
So much so I would say sometimes it's good to study without a certain grade. Atleast I think I have learnt the most in classes where after mid - semester I didn't care what grade I got by the end of the class but just gave it my 200 % and sure enough like everything in the just world I scored well too.
Thus I will say
A
~ (BvC)
therefore inconclusive !!!

one life...

Life is a tragedy for those who feel, and a comedy for those who think --- La Bruyere

I came across this quote today on some website and I really started wondering if it was true.
Does life become a tragedy for people who just emote and is it really a comedy for those who think and laugh and more importantly are able to laugh at themselves and the idiosyncrasies of life?

Probably true , probably not. Still in the quest of evidence.

Tough Call

Tougher walls that you build , tougher are they to break
nevertheless people budge in , with umpteen hurts they sad you make.

You try to repace the clock , say you never want to stop
you try to turn around but little do you expect a stab

A stab in the back, a blow unexpected
when you let down your guard, that's when you are eliminated.

Give in to kindness only when you are stone - hearted,
expect back everything except for an honest heart courted.

Stop being nice, caring and loving.
Very few deserve any sort of warning

Let them see the ditch and in it fall,
Fall hard and hurt themselves and feel repentence over all

For only then would they think why you did , what you did
For only then would peace prevail where it should.

Sometimes it is indeed necessary for you to get hurt because often what care and love cannot teach, pain and sorrow teach in a split second.

If I could........I would !!!!

If I could, I would......I would spread my wings and fly around the world.....
These are some of the places I'd like to see...... Not in any kind of rank order....it's just random flights of fantasy....Hope at least some of them come true.....

1) Santorini , Greece
Weekend in Santorini, walk on the beaches on starry nights and enjoying the fresh sea breeze through a window of a beautiful villa.

2) Paris , France

A weekend watching and relieving history at the Louvre Museum in Paris. Walking around the flower markets in Paris, and shopping at Christian Dior for exotic perfumes...........

3) Mauritius , Indian Ocean
Relaxing on the beaches. Having a candle light dinner with the one whom I would spend my life with.....

4)Venice , Italy
A Gondola ride through the Venetian Canals........Basking in the Italian sun, Relishing red red wine and a guitar for the ears..........

5) Prague, Czech Republic

Just a quiet walk by the city square and a little music concert with dinner on the sidewalk ........

6) Cologne , Germany

The Koelner Dom, the market with loads of shopping and the chocolate museum.....Loads of vibrant colors and peace in spite of tandem......

7) Ladakh (Pangong Lake) , India

Calm afternoon by the lake, with hot tea and a wonderful book to read and my camera........

Well if dreams come true I will not complain. I don't know when but I will wait........For all these places hold a special place in my heart......and my brain...It's great there are no taxes on dreams... So dream. Dream on.........You never know when the puzzle pieces will fall into place and when the dream would be reality....... Live... live on in hope that the dreams would come true..........

what do they know?...Save a heart that hath tried!!!!

Lonely as a star on a moonless night, I searched through time and came across a perfect sight.
A little icon that felt divine, all it told me was that she was online Gave up all my work and sat up late through the night
At the break of dawn witnessed a dreamy plight.

Couldn't concentrate, couldn't string words straight, Saw how the mechanics of my body failed.
Sleep refused to put my mind to rest, pumping iron I continued in earnest further neglecting all pleasures of mortal being ,
I thrived on pure euphoria of love deceiving.

Mysterious soul mates we were talking and talking till eternity came, felt time should move faster and infinitely stay the same. Thought about the world; a world with just her and me.
And then just me again. Could take it no more than a moment , the absence of her just made my heart torment. Pain wasn't something I avoided long, it always caught up on most domain,
to reach up for something , hold on to faith and then losing everything all over again seemed mundane.

This time around she turned out to be a benevolent soul, she pulled me through the wonderous world, dreaming each day and wishing I'd be with her, dreaming dreams together , wishing we would be one forever.
Then struck reality and slapped me in the face, for reasons unknown she said she couldn't go on with this deep down in the ocean I was drowning, chained to sorrow and grief inviting. Convinced her but in vain, then convinced myself once more to be slain.

Slurps and Puffs did me in, why some good , they did me awesome, yes I should, one night as I lay beside a woman I hardly knew, I forgot how my soul-mate got over the agony and woe.
She had tortured herself in dilemma and confusion although she said no she loved me more than before.

Married to another I was wondering she would soon fade from memory, anger rage or wrath call it if you will, all these she showered on me still. I spoke never again with her and neither did she.Sweet blossoms of misery, closed all my sadness, locked it up well, threw away the key and both decided to rot in hell.

May be I can stop feeling sad, May be not feel anything at all. Numbness and the dark scathing pain inane, screaming thoughts that drive me insane.
I don't belong to her, I never will she will never be mine, she never will.
Goodness I can stop living,certainly can I!
But I can't stop loving her, Why? Why? must I?

Objects in mirror are closer than they appear

Eh ? wondering what this title means or as usual has the goblin decided to talk in abstruse sentences..... A short weekend trip to somewhere always opens your eyes to newer meanings of life I think...
Look at the picture I have taken above ...Outside a realtor's office this selfless flower was basking in the sun giving to the world what it is best at.....flaunting it's beauty with grace but at the same time being oblivious of the fact that it is so beautiful....So unlike us Humans right????

"Objects in mirror are closer than they appear ," This statement of Caution on the passenger side rear view mirror bears a lot of things that it wishes to convey (implicitly)...another of those things that dawn upon you when you think critically or when you are amused about language....
The mirror is convex, the mirror thus compresses reality...The mirror thus decieves you?????? Just like reality sometimes ??? and so the warning..Beware...what you think is impending Doom could be closer than you think.

Good vegetarian food can be amazingly tasty too.For all you meat lovers try eating a pita burger next time,it's awesome. Soy milk doesn't taste all that bad and cooking without any oil at all 100 points for being so health conscious. Unusual and new concept but try doing it atleast once in a while. Will save a lot of money on health care in the long run I think.

Ice Skating... It isn't as easy as it looks. Again reality is deceptive. However it is great fun trying to do what you thought was easy and what your ego begs to differ with your skill and tries to push your limits to perform better than you possibly can.
Do not fall. If you do; do not cry because when you wear roller blades, go on slippery ice and don't have any idea how to balance yourself....The only rational thing that can happen at that moment is the act of FALLING.....so the only thing you can do is probably minimize the impact of your fall

And Lastly.....Moments with friends....PRICELESS...This trip had a lot of firsts.....First one with my closest friend, first one visiting a nearby state, first one driving , first time ice skating and yes first one I was not bored for even a minute ever for TWO WHOLE DAYS...yeah for me that is quite an achievement.....

Weaving in , weaving out!

Time just never seems to stand still. I often wonder what it would be like to reverse the hourglass and stare at every moment slip backwards. Well not a very interesting proposition I guess. The glorious moments do tempt me to wish for this 'wish' but the hard times tug at my shoulder and warn me not to do this perilous mistake of asking for trouble yet again.
People come and people go. Often times they spend worthless moments pulling each others legs, talking about how cool is someone and how uncool is that Mr. X out there quietly locked up in his shell of security. Little do they think how important that shell is to that Mr.X's sheer existence. Well and then to add to this misery they call all this the ' In Vogue' attitude. Nevermind these distracting thoughts, what is important is thinking of how some others weave in and out of our life and leave a distinct pattern. Often we fail to cherish these colors woven into dangerously beautiful patterns but after a while when the paint dries and the brush still by a window sill, we do applaud the picture painted by the wall!!!!!
A small gasp, a hustle, a chuckle, giggles galore and tremendous energy are always a surprising element in a life which is as blank as a nomad's next 'life map'.
Unplanned life and a spirit for trying new paths is what keeps this flame of life burning ever so bright.
Now I may sound utterly Bard like or I may bore you to death with my philospohical arm strectching out high up above my head trying to search in the open skies, a cloud, an idea , a secret................ But nevertheless a thing I wish to share..............
Live in the moment for we know not when it would pass, Let it pass and when it does , don't sigh, Just look up and smile and wonder how???? and Why ???? . Don't reason just ask, Don't expect just accept. Don't think ,JUST BE!